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Friday, December 28th, 2007
12:24 pm - !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i. don't. want. to. believe. it.

anything but that.

spiritual warfare is real. it's alive. and it's taking people down. right now.

current mood: shocked

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Tuesday, November 27th, 2007
6:41 pm
hello, little livejournal world.. it's been so long since i've seen you. and yet i have no time for you now either. byeebye

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Monday, June 11th, 2007
6:42 pm - forever in blue...
"There were so many things you took for granted. So many things you hardly noticed until they were gone. In Carmen's case, one of those things was her identity.

She did have one once. She had once been the only child of a single mother. She had been one quarter of a famously inseparable foursome. She had been a standout math student, a fashionista, a good dancer, a control freak, and a slob. A resident of 4F. Now these things were gone, or--for the time, at least--undetectable. She had come up with nothing to replace them.

Ideally, you grew up in a house with a family and then you went to colleege. You left your home and family there, kind of waiting for you. You left a hole roughly the size and shape of you. You got to come home and fill it every once in a while. Maybe this was only an illusion.

Nothing stayed the same. You couldn't expect your family to sit there in suspended animation until you got back. That required a babyish narcissism that not even Carmen could muster. But so what if it was an illusion? Illusions could be really helpful sometimes.

The important thing was that home stayed where it was and you got to move. You could always plot your location in the world by your relationship to it.

As Carmen's mother liked to point out, teenagers and toddlers were very much the same. They both liked to leave their mother, so long as their mother did not move.

Well, Carmen's mother did move. She was a moving target. Home was a time and no longer a place. Carmen couldn't return to it."

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Saturday, February 24th, 2007
11:20 pm - love and kisses, minnie mouse xoxo
So... training with Disneyland is pretty much the funnest thing in the world right now

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Monday, February 5th, 2007
4:57 pm - pursue the goal full-time
Earth's crammed with Heaven
And every common bush afire with God
But only he who sees takes off his shoes--
The rest sit round it and pluck blackberries

Elizabeth Barret Browning
quoted in The Life You've Always Wanted

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Saturday, January 13th, 2007
12:02 pm - class schedules
i just thought about how i never posted what classes i was taking this past semester. not that you all were dying to know haha. it's not terribly interesting, but i feel like posting anyway.

fall semester:

1. Foundations of Christian Thought
2. Business Statistics
3. Principles of Accounting I
4. First Year Seminar: Business
5. United States History
6. Fitness Walking & Jogging
7. Introduction to Psychology

(and i got an A- in history which made my gpa a 3.94. i know i shouldn't be disappointed at all ha, but i can't help it!)

for upcoming spring semester:

1. Biblical Interpretation & Spiritual Formation
2. New Testament History & Literature
3. Principles of Macroeconomics
4. Principles of Accounting II
5. Introduction to Marketing
6. Beginning Aerobics (Gospel Aerobics)

(all business and bible plus one pe. i probably shouldn't be taking NT before OT but i find myself to be okay with it..)

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Friday, January 12th, 2007
11:50 pm - spiritual gains.
i have been reading and studying about 4 chapters of the bible every day on my own since the first day of this year.
this is very significant for me.
i will be finishing the bible by dec 31 exactly, so i'm never ever skipping a day again.
i'm going through 2 chapters of the ot, 1 chapter of the nt, and about 1 chapter or so on both psalms and proverbs every day... all in order from start til finish.
this is good, and i enjoy it so so much.

more on this and related things later i hope (since i seem to never get around to entries i want to make anymore).

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Thursday, January 4th, 2007
4:35 pm - blizzards and cool furry boots
so i'm in austria and it is sooo wonderful to be doing this kind of skiing. at first there wasn't any snow but then it blizzarded for 2 days! so the snow was so thick and powdery and awesome. the only thing is that it is so crowded here. i could barely make it down one slope near the bottom of the mountain without being smacked in the face by a bunch of ski poles! and everybody skiis here mwuahaha... seriously it's only like 20% snowboarders or less. i totally just made that up but it at least seems like that.

my family is insane for trying to be in a small room together for 10 days. it gets a little crazy. we're actually staying in a house because all the hotels around were totally booked! but it's really cool... these people own a house and use all the rooms for travellers to stay in. everyone here has the coolest accent! i love being around english and german speakers.

i'm really excited that i'll be home for a pretty long time after i get back! i don't go to biola again until the 27th. except i'm planning on taking anyone who wants to go on a little road trip to biola during this break to see kev... otherwise i won't be seeing him for an entire month!

k i have to go.. using the internet here is super expensive.
ta ta

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Tuesday, December 12th, 2006
7:39 pm - Biola Dance Party

Yeah this is pretty much us, in case you didn't know.

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Wednesday, November 22nd, 2006
2:15 pm - HOME!!!!
On Monday, I was sitting outside at a table by the grass at Biola and it was like a warm summer day. Now I'm home and it's chilly and it actually feels like the holidays are coming for real! Because it's weird when all the stores are decorated for Christmas and it's hot outside. Baby, it's hot outside?

On Monday night, I really couldn't sleep. I hadn't been home once and I was soooo excited about everything that was going to happen, and I really couldn't fall asleep! Haha, I'm such a dork. And the fact that Kevin had been back home since Friday was killing me, because I felt like I was missing out on seeing everyone like he was. And I was even starting to miss Kevin because he was gone haha. I really couldn't wait to go home. I've missed my house and everyone so much (and I know it hasn't even been that long).

Yesterday, we were supposed to leave before 12. But nobody really helped to make that happen, and we didn't leave until later. But it's okay. Becky was taking a girl Sara, who lives an hour from here, and then our good friend Ashley, who's from South Dakota (but couldn't go that far for Thanksgiving break, so we have her up here for the weekend!), and I took Jessica Davis. It was a frustrating start to just get going and get on the 5. But once we were finally going, I was super excited, and Jessica and I were pretty much just singing fun songs alllll the way up. We had some good conversations too.

The drive was soooooo long. It just never ended. But Jessica and I didn't get sick of singing to songs. We were usually way behind Becky, because she drives like a madwoman, weaving in and out of everybody (and I was going 100 a lot of times! But usually about 80.) I was loving how it was getting colder and more overcast the higher we went up. And once the 5 turned into the 580, Jessica and I were just screaming, "FIIIIIVVVEEEEEE EIIIIIIIGHHHHTY YEEEEEEEAAAAAAH!" It was so exciting, you don't even know. We weren't going to make it back soon enough before Crossroads started, but we got there at about 8:30. I had called Kevin when I was passing Hacienda, and he told everyone "Jessica's coming in about 20 minutes," and all I heard was April going "WOOOOOOOOO YAAAAAAAAA, JEEEEEESSSSSIIICAAAA!" Haha. When I came in, I went to the bathroom first, but April, Kelly, and Cary saw me and ran inside screaming and hugging me. Aww, they're so cute. And when I went inside, luckily they were playing "turkey trivia" and not doing worship music. Chelsey ran toward me and tackled me to the ground, and it was kinda embarassing. I felt like I was making the hugest distraction ever. I loved how I was getting showered by everyone's love, but it was also pretty overwhelming. And April hugged me like a thousand million times, even though she's seen me down at Biola haha. I said hi to Rachael, Lindsey, Malachi, Jimmy, Nathan, Kyle, Guy, Paul, and Jen and Nate, which I pretty much made the most awkward thing ever, and then Sam came too! I loved being there, but it felt weird. It was weird that Mike was gone. And it was weird that I don't go there on a regular basis anymore. But I was just happy to be there. Oh, and the potluck was pretty sweet. Got some pie :)

Actually, on the car ride home to my house right after that, I started crying. I don't know why this is such a big emotional deal for me! I feel like it shouldn't be a huge deal. I don't know. I was even missing the drive to my house. When I drove down our driveway, I saw the bright yellow eyes and furry black figure of Cody who always runs up to greet me when I come home..... and then I saw a second pair of yellow eyes and a black figure in the background, which would usually be Boss. I thought it was at first, but then I realized that Boss is gone and I'm stupid.. John told me we were dogsitting for someone. Made me sad though.

The house was dark when I opened the door, and I was really sad to think that I got home too late and my family had already gone to bed. But then the lights turned on and there were a couple balloons and a cake! It was sooo nice. My mom was in bed though, cause I guess work really wipes her out now. But she was awake and I hung out with my whole family down in my parents' room. We talked about a lot of stuff and it was just... good to be home. I miss it, I really do.
My room is so much more empty, which is weird. But I loooved waking up in my bed this morning. Sooo nice. And apparently Cody gets to be in the house now since Boss is gone. And I went to visit my Yiayia and Papou, which was really good. We're getting all prepared for the feast tomorrow, yay! My grandparents of course sent me away with blueberries, my favorite thing ever. They're always so good to me. I love them.

I'm going to help my mom set up the tables for tomorrow, and then I'm going ice skating tonight!!!!!!!! And I'm hoping to connect with Cary as well today. If I was able to get out any sooner, I totally would have dropped by to see Leah! But Cary told me you'll be leaving before I get out there. Love you though!

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Friday, October 6th, 2006
10:48 pm - <3 October
Have you ever been to Disneyland in October? I had no idea they decorated for it.

pumpkins!Collapse )

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Wednesday, October 4th, 2006
2:07 am
I've felt so broken lately.

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Tuesday, September 26th, 2006
11:59 pm - I urge you to read Love Your God With All Your Mind by J.P. Moreland.
"There has emerged a secular/sacred separation in our understanding of the Christian life with the result that Christian teaching and practice are privatized and placed in a separate compartment from the public or so-called secular activities of life... By way of example, I'm always encouraged to use my intelect in how I approach my vocation, select a house, or use a computer. But within my sphere of private, spiritual life of faith, it is my heart, and my heart alone, that operates. The life of the mind is thus separated, broken off, and compartmentalized as a function of the "secular" life instead of more naturally being integrated with the spiritual....

Our children can attend virtually any university and major in an subject they wish. But in a four-year course of study they will almost never interact with a Christian thinker in their field or with Christian ideas relevant to their course content. Why? No doubt, many reasons could be given. But cleary, one reason is that the cream rises to the top. If there are few Christian intellectuals who write college textbooks from a Christian perspective, it must be because our evangelical culture is simply not producing such people because we do not value the intellecual life. After all, the purpose of college for many is to get a job, and course work is considered secular, not sacred. What is important for our children is that they stay pure in college, and perhaps, witness, have a quiet time, and pray regularly. Obviously, these are important. But for a disciple, the purpose of college is not just to get a job. Rather, it is to discover a vocation, to identify a field of study in and through which I can serve Christ as my Lord. And one way to serve Him in this way is to learn to think in a Christian manner about my major. A person's Christianity doesn't begin at a dorm Bible study, when class is over; it permeates all of one's life, including how one thinks about the ideas in one's college major.

...Our discipleship materials often leave Christian young people vulnerable to atheistic college professors with an ax to grind. For such professors, shredding an intellectually unprepared undergraduate's faith is like shooting fish in a barrel."

The mission of Biola University is biblically-centered education, scholarship, and service—equipping men and women in mind and character to impact the world for the Lord Jesus Christ... Our business is to inspire student's learning so that they are empowered to think and practice from a Christian worldview in their fields of service. (more here)

Just confirming the reason that I am here. I need that.

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Sunday, September 24th, 2006
8:37 pm
the good old 90sCollapse )

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Friday, September 15th, 2006
8:23 pm - StrengthsQuest
oh my, i haven't been on here in forever. i haven't even read anyone's posts practically since i;ve been down here. i'm about to do that.

i'm going to update about biola, but i just wanted to post this for my own reference:
(i had to figure out my strengths through this book & online test for a class)

StrengthsQuestCollapse )

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Wednesday, August 23rd, 2006
12:35 am
i have lots to do and update about.. this has been the craziest/most packed/busy/fun/BEST weekend/week of my life... and yet i still want to update about stuff from before coming down to BIOLA... ahh i'n running out of time.. and memory! well
i will be BACK!
just letting you know i'm alive and having a great awesome time.
but coming on livejournal makes me sad/miss home.

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Thursday, August 17th, 2006
11:41 pm
bye :(

i hope it's not my last goodbye to my grandpa and/or my dog. :'(

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Tuesday, July 25th, 2006
9:19 am - sighs.
I never thought of Colossians 3 as such a difficult passage until now.

"Since, then, you have been raised with Christ, set your hearts on things above, where Christ is seated at the right hand of God. Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things. For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God. When Christ, who is your life, appears, then you also will appear with him in glory.
Put to death, therefore, whatever belongs to your earthly nature: sexual immorality, impurity, lust, evil desires and greed, which is idolatry. Because of these, the wrath of God is coming. You used to walk in these ways, in the life you once lived. But now you must rid yourselves of all such things as these: anger, rage, malice, slander, and filthy language from your lips. Do not lie to each other, since you have taken off your old self with its practices and have put on the new self, which is being renewed in knowledge in the image of its Creator. Here there is no Greek or Jew, circumcised or uncircumcised, barbarian, Scythian, slave or free, but Christ is all, and is in all.

Therefore, as God's chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity.

Let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, since as members of one body you were called to peace. And be thankful. Let the word of Christ dwell in you richly as you teach and admonish one another with all wisdom, and as you sing psalms, hymns and spiritual songs with gratitude in your hearts to God. And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him."

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Sunday, July 16th, 2006
1:38 am - Circle of life

this is for Terence

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Friday, July 14th, 2006
11:14 am - peace, love, and joy, jesus loves you
^ I miss the African kids.

Monday: had a lazy day at home; then went to Kev's house; went out to On the Border; we saw Click which was hilarious.

Tuesday: went to work, then picked up my brother at day camp (he's interning); saw Anthony and talked to him for a while; played at Golden Tee with my brother; dropped him off at the Ice Creamery to hang out with Julia's sisters, their friend, and Steven Morrow; picked up Kevin; went to Crossroads college group; Joe spoke about marriage; Kevin and I went out with Roman and Ashley to Fong's; had a good talk with Mrs. Fong; went to Kyle's house and watched Monte Cristo with him, Anthony, Kelly, Malachi, Rachael, STEPHANIE!! (she visited), and Tim.

Wednesday: worked again; went to Kevin's house; went out with Roman and Ashley to Don Jose's; was supposed to hang out with Anthony but it didn't work out.

Thursday: worked again all day; went out to meet Kevin for ice cream but then he had to go work at 20/20; tried calling everyone but nobody answered except Julia - talked to her on the phone for a long time; went to Mike Forrest's house for the Bible study; at first Chelsey was the only other freshman there and was forcing people to eat burritos; Monica, Peter, and Terence ended up coming; all these other people from Pennsylvania (from Mike's old church) came and did the study with us and were staying at his house; the study was really awesome even though I haven't even read the book yet.

Kevin came to hang out afterward and him, Monica, Peter, Terence and I talked for a while. I forced them to watch my Circle of Life Africa Safari video I made. I heard heartbreaking news that the baby of William the Youth Care leader in Africa died because it was choked by the umbilical cord. This makes me very very sad, because he was so excited about his first baby.

We started talking about Calvinism, and Mike came and talked to us about limited atonement and definite atonement (TULIP vs. TUDIP).
THEN we counted down the seconds until my birthday, and I was like "YAY I'M 18!" and I ate a million NOW N LATERS, seriously.
I left at 12:20, but it was a good 20 minutes of spending my birthday with people.

Today, I woke up to thisCollapse )
John is all tired from the all-nighter at day camp. He said he had the worst demonic kids possible and he got no sleep.

Later, I'm going out with Cary, Andrew, and Kev for dinner, and then I'll be going to the African kids choir at church (7:00).

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